he doesnt live here anymore

he used to be there
or i was told he was
i never saw him, he never said boo to me
others of course had seen him
i was just an outsider if i couldn't

i even lied to fit in
i felt bad about that
not bad that i had lied
bad that i had to, just to gain their approval.

its been sometime since i thought about it
either way
but tonight i know
as sure as death rides a fast horse

he's just a fraud
bigger, yes
better, maybe
but just a fraud