Won't Accept That

I realize but won't accept
the thought that our apartness
may linger on beyond our goals

two years is long but already
six months gone

its not that we wont get there
its the interminable wait that pains
the what ifs that enter
unbidden, unwelcome
the thought that why
do i even think it could

the odds of love surviving low
i acknowledge them
but won't accept that

your words of endearment
swords to my black thoughts
and dispels all my fears